Well, people never learn from their mistakes. Sometimes it kicks us in the butt so hard yet we hardly felt it. It pays to be subjected under such circumstances when it leaves us no choice but to live with it. We are always under their clutches regardless on how we tried to find a flaw within the strands of fate. Yes, ever since we are born we are bound to them. Sometimes it just sucks that we don't get to chose to whom we are born too. Cant they get it that we hardly had a choice in all these? i live with it, survived 26 years of hurt, embarrassment and disappointments.
Disappointment, that word goes around so much these days. Just when you think that you'll get your chance to spread your wings and fly, here comes Mr. Disappointment gladly cutting your wings. So much for your hurrah!
How much do you think a beating one can take after deciding to end once life? Physically beating yourself? emotionally ruin yourself esteem. I know this person who relishes to see you squirm and is in delight while watching you confused and hoping for death. Kinda like reminding of Artemis in the book of Kenyon. Artemis, the goddess of Hunt. Too bad she should have been the goddess of discord and misery. Or even take the place of Ker.
Which brings down to hope. I don't know why i tried so much to please when i know its going no where. Everyday you try you think that when she gave you a morsel of attention she picked from the floor like you matter and then gladly toss it to the dogs and laugh while you try to drink you own saliva to quench your thirst and appease your hunger that you would learn but somehow you never will. The same cycle repeats over and over like a broken record. Like the needle in a gramophone scarring the vinyl records over and over. You know what they say, first cut is the deepest, but when repeated you'll get numb from the pain. Just like saying, "so what? you'll live!"
When will one learn. When will i learn. But then everyday the same old thing. no wonder i'm getting no where..
Disappointment, that word goes around so much these days. Just when you think that you'll get your chance to spread your wings and fly, here comes Mr. Disappointment gladly cutting your wings. So much for your hurrah!
How much do you think a beating one can take after deciding to end once life? Physically beating yourself? emotionally ruin yourself esteem. I know this person who relishes to see you squirm and is in delight while watching you confused and hoping for death. Kinda like reminding of Artemis in the book of Kenyon. Artemis, the goddess of Hunt. Too bad she should have been the goddess of discord and misery. Or even take the place of Ker.
Which brings down to hope. I don't know why i tried so much to please when i know its going no where. Everyday you try you think that when she gave you a morsel of attention she picked from the floor like you matter and then gladly toss it to the dogs and laugh while you try to drink you own saliva to quench your thirst and appease your hunger that you would learn but somehow you never will. The same cycle repeats over and over like a broken record. Like the needle in a gramophone scarring the vinyl records over and over. You know what they say, first cut is the deepest, but when repeated you'll get numb from the pain. Just like saying, "so what? you'll live!"
When will one learn. When will i learn. But then everyday the same old thing. no wonder i'm getting no where..
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