loser.. big time!

i guessni have that big sign in my head that says "LOSER" or it says "SEX AVAILABLE HERE"

like i suspect.. he didnt came.. well atleast i didnt make a fool out of myself.

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confused

I got a mesaage from my crush today.. we dont usually talk except maybe about fitness or dogs. Basically just small talk.

Last night i didnt expect that we would flirt around with each other for 2 hours until were both sleepy. He said i was looking pretty hot this days.. well im not sure if it was just full of crap but i welcome the complement coming from him.

Im not sure if he's drunk or just trippin.. because the conversation was going down to him stripping my clothes off to the garter and was uttering mission failed since i told him he was not that lucky..

Was it a booty call? im getting mixed signals.. and he wanted to come over my house tomorrow with some lame excuse to "to copy movies"..  am i getting a booty call at 9am???

Whats up with that???  I think he just wanted to know if i'll bite. I'll tell you about it tomorrow.. if he shows up!

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A night with a Pole

Studio I where I do my Zumba class had a pole dancing seminar.  I was dying to sign-up.  when I learned that the registration was over P4500 and per class was P650. I had to think twice plus I was leaving for Manila and cannot finish the class.  if i was not going I would have taken the complete class.  It has been a long dream of mine to take a class on pole dancing.  Its on top of my bucket list.  So when this came up.. it pains me to pass the opportunity.

My friend Jinky decided to join me and try out zumba class and just my luck the pole dancing class was after my class. We both watched a preview of the class.. we were both awed.  And cant help ourselves, we decided that the day before my flight, we will take one class. Splurge P650 just so we can say, "yeah, ive done that!"

pole dancer instructor

Me and Jinky after zumba class.. eye bugs galore!!

So the two of us packed our stuff and got ready for the class.  I realized I am not that limber!! i cant fold that well.. not very flexible.. hahahha... iv'e been wanting to stretch out but haven't got the time.  The experience was incredible, freeing and exotically sexy.  Jinky just wants to do the tricks. the instructor commend us both because we are fast learner.  She told me i have one hell of a grip.  I fell a few times and its ok...its part of the process.. but I learned a lot.  it took me a while but i got the hang of it.  if given the chance i will repeat it again!

These are my first attempts.. but when the class started, we had to remove our clothes and just remain in our underwear (i was wearing a sports bra and a very skimpy shorts! hahaha... 

I just didn't try the 7" heels although i was dying to!

In pole dancing, the better you get, the lesser clothes you wear!

Benefits of Eggs

I spent hours yesterday working on this forum entry.  it was like an article really about eggs and the project manager wanted me to scratch it. (bitch!!) So I'm posting it here just to.. well ..make the hours i made it feel validated.  its not a genius work but hey! i worked hard on it.. :P

The simple things we sometimes took for granted are sometimes one of the most beneficial things we can have.  I opened my fridge to only to find out that only eggs are left.  I was feeling that I can whip up something nutritious out of these eggs.  Thinking about it, there are lots of benefits when it comes within this shell.

Affordable
Yes, they come in cheap.  We can buy them almost at every grocery store, local market or straight at a farm.  You can get them in a half or a dozen or even in trays.  Eggs have been a popular menu in our table since I can remember.

Versatile
When we think of eggs, we always think of it as a breakfast food, but what is unique about eggs is that it has the capability to serve as a binder, coating, thickener, emulsifier or a leavening agent.  We can partner it with other ingredients to make something tasty or it is fine on its own.  You can use it as a part of your main course or dessert.  You can cook it in so many ways.

Healthy
One egg contains 6 grams of high quality protein and 9 essential amino acids.  They contain the right kind of fat, 5 grams, and only 1.5 grams of saturated fats.  They help release the energy from carbohydrates, fats and promotes metabolism of proteins. It contains the best type of protein since  egg whites contains the purest form of protein.

Body builders eat eggs as part of their diet because of the protein they need to build muscle mass, eggs provide this for them.  We all know the importance of protein in the muscles because without it, it simply won’t grow.  With body builders doing much heavy weight training, they  will need the abundant supply of protein in order to repair the protein fibres to grow strong and bigger.

Easy and Fun!
Cooking with eggs are very easy.  Fry, boil, poached, or scrambled  an egg is done in only just a few minutes.  It is easy and doesn’t  take much and the variety of things you can do with it are endless. Shells are now even preserved and painted in different designs, souvenirs, and handmade projects.  With the countless of ways we can turn an egg into one delicious creation, it is a wonder a delightful and nutritious filling can fit a simple little white shell.

All these just by opening my fridge   Ha! Share your thoughts and recipes  

Some kind of a Christmas

We'll not be celebrating Christmas this year too.  Mom is running off to malaysia, brother is working, and i got time in my hands.. so.. i'll be cooking something for my birthday instead.  i know I'm not supposed to celebrate it.. but I'm not celebrating my birthday.. I'm just going to cook to relive stress.  I was supposed to disappear during that day but as usual, plans changed since my salary this month didn't fit my budget. So me drinking my heart out and looking for reasons not to live will be postponed for another month.  See how ironic life is? heheh... anyway.. my menu for birthday will be my classic spaghetti recipe. here are the ingredients! ( I will post pictures and update)

Mighty Protein Spaghetti (protein because of all the meat!) ^_^

(the amount of ingredients vary according to your linking)

1 kilo pasta (either penne or the classic noodles wheat or regular)

corned beef

sliced hotdogs

sliced mushrooms

1/2-1 kilo ground beef (or pork if you like) 

         you can use the half for meatballs

minced onions

minced garlic

spiced ham (cut in squares)

liver spread

1 box all purpose cream

spaghetti sauce (italian and sweet)

meat sauce (with mushrooms)

minced bell pepper (optional)

garnish

*maybe served with garlic sticks, garlic bread, or toasted bruschetta

Onion rings

(this I got from a very wonderful website)

 http://foodwishes.blogspot.com/2010/05/can-i-get-onion-rings-instead-of-fries.html

just follow all instructions there.

cornstarch

all purpose flour

cayenne (i dont know if i will add this)

instant mashed potatoes

japanese breadcrumbs

water or milk (my version)

Sinful fruit salad

(why? with all the all-purpose cream and condensed milk i put in there my TRX abs will disappear!)

1 can fruit cocktail

1 pack nata de coco

1 pack kaong

1 bar cheese cut into small squares

1 can pineapple chunks

1 can corn kernel

1 pack raisins

peanuts (optional)

2 boxes of all purpose cream

1/2 can of condensed milk

I am not sure if i will set this as a topping for a graham ref cake.. heheh.. that depends upon the budget.

Anyway.. i will try my very best not to cry again on my birthday because of disappointments.  If i cant do anything about it.. I'll buy some shoes at Primadonna! 

Naughty... naughty... naughty...

I did something today that i though i will never do in my entire life and its the first time I've done it too.  I also solemnly told myself that I will never be one of those people who exposed themselves in all glory.  Yes, I always envied their freedom and their security and able to be shameless once in a while.

So i did the unthinkable (well unthinkable for me..hehehe) i took everything off and pose nude. I took several pictures.. of course its not the best and the artistic kind of shot but just a regular one and  see if I am comfortable with my body.  The experience is quite freeing.. made me feel desirable and powerful.  i didnt think twice to shoot all angles I wanted.  Of course these photos are not for all of you to see.  Once I stopped shooting i deleted everything too.  I dont want that my mom will accidentally see it. Much more other people.

hhahaha

Definitely.. I should do this more often.. My, my. .. I feel great!

New week ahead

Today is a start of a very hectic week.. I have to work double time to have extra cash so I can have enough budget for my trip on January.  i might not be able to work as much as I would want but I'am looking forward for a long vacation.  I have only few people now in my Christmas checklist planned.  Last year i got everybody on the list, now since I'm keeping things to myself and been secluded for a very long time.. I was hoping that people wont notice that I am missing and no gifts are at their door.. hehehe.. 

I am out of budget especially with the new rule to be implemented inside our house.  We have to pay for the house bills equally.  With what I have right now as a salary.. I don't have enough for savings.  And there's nothing I can do but to work overtime again. reach 70 hours per week for the succeeding weeks just enough to  have a budget for my daily supplements. (i know im getting bitter again so i wont go ranting about it.)

Anyway.. this week will compose of;

• Powertec task (will try to achieve 70 hours)
• Designs for Zahir
• Natalie's wedding album
• I will have a daily walk with kirara...(will provide pictures later)
• Will buy:

1. Christmas Gifts (mama. choi, lola, james, yana)
2. Fat burner (will try lipo 6 black hers just 10 capsules for a week trial)
3. Prunes
4. Grape juice
5. Grape seed

day off

im taking the dayboff but will work later.. catched up some DvDs so i can take a break.. im craving for onion kropek/crackers... will buy some later... im craving..:(

Day 7: further disappointments

Its been a week and as usual I was not given a chance to even have a week just for me.. it always have to be about somebody else.  Caught between your parent's loveless marriage is not a very good spot for me.  I always end up being the go to party.

Partly I guess it was my fault.  i haven't kept my mouth shut.  I know I am living at her house so my loyalty should be on hers.  The thing is I don't have very much loyalty on both.  My father wants me to take care of him because as he said "You are all old enough and you have to work, so my obligation to you is done and you have to take care of me instead" he is so used to being single that for 25 years, he only changed his status to married this year.

My mom will always play the pity card and deny that she needs  pity.  I am caught in between.  They don't talk anymore so they talk through me.My father doesn't trust my mom about the family expenses and thinking mom is just spending the money on her own luxury, (especially when he sees my mom's personal bag and shoes collection.  My father is one big to talk when he only send 20% of his salary to us and spend it to his car, and other electronic gadgets.

My brother is pissed because my mother is hurt, my father doubt us, my father thinks that we just spend the money he sent to some luxury.  my father is still bitter that my brother and my mom went to Hongkong last year and my mom spent 2 weeks in Singapore and Malaysia. My father has been working for 28 years in Riyadh but haven't saved a single cent.  the packages he sent as gift when he goes home are from company freebies.

And when he is home, he will not spend a single cent for his kids. he is expecting for us to spend on him instead.

I know my family is not perfect and my father have this idealistic picture that we are going to be a one whole big and happy family. But the truth of the matter is that we are not.  My mom is angry because i reprimanded her and tell her that partly it was her fault.  i forgot that I should never do that ever.  she thinks she is always right. Too much pride in our family, I wonder why we haven't started killing each other.

And you are wondering why i am built this way? Why i am disappointed with life, friends and family?   i wonder how I keep it together.  Everybody disappoints one way or another. Its always be and have been.